Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Birthday Tyler!!

Well, tomorrow that is.
November 1st :)
My husband will be turning 22! YEYA! haha... we are so young and yet have accomplished so much!
Feels like yesterday that we began dating.... So in honor of his birthday, Im gonna tell our story (just cause its a special occasion lol)
I was with a guy before Tyler that I was engaged to (yes, at 18 yrs old) and had an apt with. I was very unhappy, and we fought all the time, so as much as it was out of my comfort zone- I broke up with him. Even with a deposit on a reception place and my wedding gown ordered. I just COULDNT be unhappy my whole life. I knew that, but it took a LOT to make the final cut to our relationship. Back track. While we were dating He had a truck that he played around with, and needed some advice on something to do with it. So he called up an aquaintance/buddy he went to school with (but never really talked to) and asked to come over and compare something on their similar vehicles. Enter Tyler. This was when I met him the first time. I asked to use his parents bathroom, and didnt see him again til the end of summer 07 at a birthday party. it was just another hello. I didnt think anything of it. December of 07 my boyfriend and I got engaged. We started going to see tylers truck which was a racing truck come together at a garage over that winter. tyler and i became kind of friends. but i still didnt think anything of it (i was engaged!) I started hangin around there more when i was bored. tyler now tells me he thought i was gorgeous haha (yeah right) but thought i was out of his -and the guy i was with's leagues.
Then towards the end of February 2008 I finally called it quits with my ex. it was just getting ugly. nasty fights, both of us were becoming volatile. it wasnt meant to be. I still lived with him in our one bedroom apartment. my parents didnt need me moving back in, and i didnt have a job at the time, and wasnt keeping up with school. so this was rock bottom. my ex was at least nice enough to not kick me on the streets and let me stay there. sometimes just so i didnt have to sleep on the floor we woud make a barrier on the bed while we slept. Every evening Tyler and I would kind of chat on aim. Then one day I told tyler how mixed up i felt and didnt know what i wanted in life. he took a big risk (gambling with a mixed up girl) and asked if he could come pick me up, that he had to tell me something. I agreed. We drove around in his truck and finally I said look can you please tell me you are scaring me (lol).
He parked and looked me in the eyes and said i like you liz. and i think you are worth so much more than youve been treated...ive thought that the whole time ive known you. just wanted to tell you that.
I HAD NO CLUE WHAT TO SAY TO THAT. I mean after all, I didnt really know him. So I said that I wasnt sure how i felt at the moment and would like to take the time to hang out and get to know him. he thought this was fair enough (most guys hear the "just friends" thing and get impatient...but he waited for me). We hung out and finally May 19th 2008 I said we could make our dating "official". fast forward to august 15th 2008. (we had even broken up for 2 weeks in the middle of all that).


Friday, October 29, 2010

Midmorning Ramble

I feel the need to make more of a list sort through all the things on my here it goes:

  • I am glad my 6 week post partum checkup is done and overwith... and that she approved me for more pregnancies and surrogacy.
  • I wonder what the surgical group thinks of me for not showing for an appt twice for my breast lump.
  • I feel so irresponsible lately.
  • Will this baby ever sleep in his crib!? Our shoulders and necks are killing us!
  • I wonder when I will make another/upload video...
  • Blake seems to be throwing more tantrums lately...and listening less :(
  • Holy bills.
  • $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.....can we please have some??
  • Blake please stop shredding toilet paper. again.
  • Trick or treat... we didnt go crazy with costumes this fact blake has a pumpkin sweater and jordan has none. I feel guilty. But theres just so much going on...but still- see bullet #3
  • When will I ever be dressed and showered before 5pm? Im sick of being in my underwear all day but I cant stand wearing clean clothes before I get a shower.
  • I need to start exercising
  • My dream last night was very creepy.
  • Our house is a nightmare. But instead I do this.
  • I miss our cats. But I also am 100% certain we did everything within reason we could have before taking them to the shelter. And spent tons of money. None of it worked :( and no one wanted them in the ads and through people we know.
  • I need to call the humane league to make sure they are even being put up for adoption.
  • UGH we have to take care of that stupid title transfer saturday. 
  • We need to visit our grandparents.

Well... there is more...but Jordan is crying so gots ta go. I will make a normal blog post soon enough.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

My Breastfeeding Journey: The first 6 weeks.

Ah breastfeeding. There are so many ups and downs Im not sure where to begin! Well, let me just start out by saying that for the first 3-4 weeks, everytime I fed Jordan, I wanted to just get a bottle. I wanted to bottle feed SO bad. Now, it is getting so much easier and second nature. We are more efficient and it is just plain easier than bottlefeeding (like we did with Blake). I will say that at night for one of the feedings Tyler gives him a bottle mixture of formula and breastmilk... which serves us just fine. Jordan usually eats every 2 hours but sometimes waits 3. I still just want someone to feed him a bottle sometimes. mainly because I want a break from being with him 24/7. I do realize that I could pump more but to me that just takes extra time and energy that i dont have. So most of the time i just put him to the boob.

In two weeks it will be the longest my boobs have made milk. (for Blake I pumped sometimes until 8 weeks pp). I still have my doubts as to whether i will breastfeed as long as originally planned, im thinking 4-6 months instead of 18 months. i love breastfeeding and hate it at the same time... i cant believe im so mixed about it! really... i just miss my sleep. thats what most of this is about. or my independence i could have from baby for a break. but when i think about it, breastfeeding, like i said, is easier because its all already there. no scoops, measuring, microwave needed.

Jordan still projectile vomits occasionally, and spits up at every feeding at least once, but its not AS bad and we both think he is growing. He still is colicky all hours of the evening and night, but "this too shall pass". He finally takes a nuk about 95% of the time, and a bottle 98% of the time-that we actually use one. unfortunately, he still sleeps in tylers arms almost every night because he will scream otherwise, and Blake would be woken up (to me thats just not fair to him).

Well, this blog was totally unorganized but they are just things that have been in my head and needed to "write" out. hopefully i didnt bore you to tears. and by the way, this blog needs an automatic grammar/spelling/punctuation corrector so i dont have to care as much lol. As you can see though, i didnt.

Friday, October 22, 2010

When stay at home moms get sick

Its inevitable. every year. once a year (usually-sometimes more) i get sick. This is the first time while i am home with two babies. Actually Tyler is sick too. and both babies seem to have stuffy noses. The right side of my face, my sinuses, teeth, head and neck feel awful. luckily jordan had a great night last night!!
My question is... what do other stay at home moms do when they get sick? do you get to rest at all? is your illness usually prolonged because you cant rest?
Just wondering... right now i wish i could rest. but like i said, i am lucky and thankful for last night being somewhat easier.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Meet the Usner Family

little bit about us....

Tyler is my husband, soul mate, best friend, team, partner, lover- everything you can think of. Of course we have our moments... who doesn't? he is a 22 yr old forklift operator at an international farm equipment company. he is an amazing father- one of the most hands on ones i have ever seen. he enjoys working on his racing truck..which is actually how we met (another story for another time) he is also my biggest helper. he helps with EVERYTHING. he cleans cooks helps with the boys... i cant complain :)

Blake is our firstborn son, 19 months old. he was born vaginally (induced @ 37 weeks 1 day for high blood pressure-had him the next day at 1:00pm) on March 24th 2009. He was actually due April 12th 2009 which was Easter. He was 20 inches long and 6 lbs 10.4 oz. he was a peanut, but from then on, he grew non stop becoming 95th percentile by one month old. and then stayed at 95th or off the charts for good. he was even on breastmilk the first 2 months! I remember him drinking 15 oz every feeding at 4 months, when i finally asked the doc what i could do...his appetite was insatiable!! The doctor actually gave us the go ahead to introduce solids. his body was just ready! and he did great! He is now the most pleasurable child, most always well behaved and listens well. and is simply sweet! he is my gentle giant :o). His favorite things are: fans, balls, lights, people, phones, remotes, food, and his grandparents (all 4...and all 7 great grandparents...his great great grandma died early this year :( ). His vocabulary is now about 30 words or a little more. lets see how many i can think of: ball cup uhoh up puppy dog kitty nanna momma dadda baby guy hi ear eye car clock tick tock cheese girl butterfly food hot cold hat etc.

Jordan is our newbie. he is 5 weeks 3 days old today. due sept 22nd 2010, born sept 12th 2010 at 8:11 am via c section (dystocia, heart decels, partial transverse lie) i was 38.5 weeks preggo. he was 7 lbs 8 oz and 21 1/4 long. nursed great from the get go. he has many stomache issues that i wont get into now, but all in all he is not the happiest of babies (nor WAS blake). he like stripes, nursing, being warm, nursing, and nursing. and being patted on the bottom. he isnt growing as fast as blake did but thats fine with me and my back.

me. I am Liz (Elizabeth) as many of you already know. I am a 21 year old stay at home mother of two under two. i am also of course a wife. i come from a happy wonderful family which i adore, my mom and dad, and my older brother. i enjoy horseback riding (i used to be in show jumping and had a horse named Lacey), as well as painting and drawing, and sculpting- when i have access to a wheel.

see? all that punctuation and proper form/grammar went real fast lol.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

How exciting! My first entry!!

Ahhh! Where to start? 
Well, I am on here for a reason. Mostly because I have time while nursing my youngest son, and figured I should be doing something productive, so here's my blog. It's not going to be perfect- in fact- probably far from it... I'm not striving to be a famous writer here, and although I was in English honors classes in HS, I'm usually not going to be grammatically(?) correct, or have accurate punctuation.
Well these past few weeks have been a little crazy. I have a husband and two boys. Now the clincher is the age of my two boys. 18 months... and 5 weeks. ba-da-dum CH! YEAH. I have two under two. Most of this blog is going to be of that sort. Family, parenting, children, and our good times... and yet so much more. I feel that knowledge does no good if you do not share it. So here we are!! 
Some posts will be random and some not so random (and probably a random blog as a whole :P ) 
...and so it begins...